I am feeling a bit battered this week: my husband is out of town, my schedule is in a tailspin, and I am pretty sure I am out of clean clothes. Despite this fact I am still hanging in there getting things done. I am sure by the end of the week I will have achieved some sort of equilibrium.
I am decking my halls, and buying my gifts. I did make a list and checked it four times and still forgot something somewhere. I am sure my lack of decisions will be an issue on the night before the big dinner.
On a good year it takes some big motivation to get my “Christmas mojo” going. Not being Christian, I find some of the trappings do elude me. However, I seem to get it together somehow. This year I seem to be dealing with a bit of depression and, worse still, a huge dose of apathy.
Still, I do like to make the dinner for my family and kids. I put up the tree to remind me that the sun is returning. Soon the days will get longer and we will have more light. I burn a yule log in my hearth and enjoy the fact that I can pull it now off my own property.
My family is accepting of my rituals and rites, odd though they may be. My husband is a trooper and even helps me. I am a happy Pagan with a family I love and friends who accept me the way I am.
So, I embrace a little Christmas for them and they are learning to embrace the Solstice traditions that I add to their celebration. I still do my rituals on the proper day, but bringing some of my celebrations to theirs really has made this a less stressful time for me. It helps me stay grounded.
I am blessed by the Goddess with family and friends. Doubly so for my amazing husband who stands at my side. Together we make a team that is darn near unstoppable. I am still learning each year to embrace my beliefs to own my path.
To each of you and yours… Happy Hanukkah, Merry Christmas, a blessed Winter Solstice, Happy Holidays or just good day to you. Enjoy each day, for you can only live it once.